Jason Baird

My name is Jason Baird and I am one of the pastors at Victory Christian Church in Auckland New Zealand. 

I have danced the dance of ministry and the secret life of a pornography addict through roles as Youth Pastor, Elder, Ministry Director, Evangelist and a Missionary on the field in India.  I so wanted freedom but thought ‘my’ ministry, thus my life, would be stripped from me so kept this double life going for 10 years.  I am so grateful to a great God who saw to it that I found freedom through being found out!! The greatest pain became my greatest victory.  He does want me, and you, to win.

I would be lost without my wife Linda and four children Kristina, Daniela, Amy and Ethan.

Jason Baird

'There is nothing safe about sex. There never will be.'  Norman Mailer

We have this dichotomy of safety and adrenaline in the modern world, more and more safety precautions are being loaded on families, have you seen the stuff we now carry with the baby, and businesses to ensure nobody gets hurt yet we have the opportunity to engage in death defying leisure activities that make mums hair...

Grooming your wife to go places in sex to fulfil your unrealistic sexual desires has got to be one of the most unhealthy risks a recovering sex/porno addict can take in regards to their recovery and to their marriage.

The air is thick, at this time of year, with 'Hallmark' romance and the expectation of sexual encounters of a surreal, special and almost fairytale nature.  The often rushed act...

'The unexamined life is not worth living' I don't think Socrates had pornography addiction in mind when he uttered these words at his trial for heresy but non the less an apt statement for those ministers struggling for release from a dark addiction.  Not only are we caught in the world of pornography but we also shut down our lives and become 'unexamined' for fear of being found out. This is...

I always get a bit nervous when political parties come up with their campaign slogans for any election, they are typically well researched, topical, beautifully presented and the catch cry captures you.  The problem being that no beautiful slogan, well written speech nor a clever slogan can really accomplish the polished picture they present.  We all know the issues are to big for easy...

The weight, thrust and speed of a plane at a specific moment during take off necessitates a point of no return, no time to pull up or abort the take off, it must continue regardless of what is in front of them.  Ever had that feeling as you sit in front of the computer screen?

I think we all recognise the process of taking off into the soul destroying world of pornography, the taxi onto the...

The weight, thrust and speed of a plane at a specific moment during take off necessitates a point of no return, no time to pull up or abort the take off, it must continue regardless of what is in front of them.  Ever had that feeling as you sit in front of the computer screen?

I think we all recognise the process of taking off into the soul destroying world of pornography, the taxi onto the...

Now I don't want to get too philosophical or simple in trying to answer this but there are some assumptions in the title that assume the deliverance from a pornography addiction is a destination that once reached means you are forever set free.  My experience thus far indicates it is less of a destination and more of a purposeful walk.

I believe I started walking in freedom the moment I took...

During this month we are visiting some of our most viewed blogs from the previous year. We'd love to see your comments on how these impacted you or what you thought of it.

"What The Marriage Bed Is LIke During & AFter Porn Addiction?"

There was no ‘before porn’ for me to call on when trying to build a healthy sexual relationship with my wife and as I write this I am discovering the depths porn...

Like all good plans the issues was not in the strategy but in the implementation.

The process of coming up with a plan to overcome the addiction of pornography was a process within itself as I first began the journey under a cloud of embarrassment, depression, condemnation, guilt and defeat which clouded good judgement and I tended towards a legalistic plan. 'I will not go there again', 'I...

I write this sitting in a Café at 6.40am watching it slowly fill with the early morning crowd while listening to Michael Hutchens of INXS singing ‘the devil inside’.  A fitting place to be speaking of the word of God and its power to change a life.

The way in which we approach the word often dictates the way in which we leave the word.  During the darkest phase of my pornography addiction I...