Curiosity killed a cat but it didn't kill my addiction. After years of struggling I can say it was an addiction. Porn didn't start out big but small. It soon transformed, as quick as technology advance at the same speed did my viewing of hardcore porn. In order to see the hole you dug you have to look back.

As a normal teenager I was interested in sex but not porn…yet. I masturbated...

Great in bed thanks to watching other people have sex

Said no one ever. Usually this line happens afterwards a quote or a point made by a person, rather then saying it was a lie, you say, "said no one ever." This can happen in all forms of conversations...

I can run 10 miles immediately after eating at a Chinese buffet...said no one ever. Or...

I look my best when I wake up in the morning...

Good situations can go bad. About seven years ago I served as a youth minister and news broke of a pastor a couple miles from us had an affair with his secretary. People were shocked and the church was crushed. Even church people can get wrapped into something they don’t want to be a part of.

So much hate and hostility went on. I was talking with one of the pastor’s sons and weeks after this...

Easy access to porn.

As a kid I remember getting shopping ads in the newspaper. While I looked through things I wanted, there was an alternative motive, the lingerie ads.  It was one of the first things I masturbated too.  It was easy to get a hold of the ads, what the companies would send out as ads would be so much more. From the time I was a kid there have been a lot more then less. What...

It’s not fair.

Sometimes life is not fair and at times it can be our own fault.

Not growing up in a Christian home, I remember a relative telling me when I was young once you seen one pair of breasts, you want to see them all.  Guys, let’s admit it most of us are visually stimulated and paying the price for our sins can be our wives.

If we close our eyes we can compare all the women we have...

Accountability can make all the difference in the world. For the first time in a long time, I started to train for something. I am trying to train for swimming and qualifying for nationals. Last year I had some minor injuries that kept me from going 100 percent. I slowly went up in weight and went from 185 to 196 and it was all fat. I kept tell myself, I will start training more and eating...

 At times we see the good life, but wonder if we can experience it. Sometimes in life we experience the “glass ceiling” effect.

We can see the good life, but have trouble experiencing it. We have those dreams in life of what life would look life we everything fell into place the way it was supposed to. Yet we feel held back, like we are stuck in chains. Seeing isn’t believing.

Like an...

After a week long of fighting, my parents finally decided to end things. My dad walked into my room with tears in his eyes and said, “Joel, I have to go, you are the man of the house now, make sure you take care of everyone.” WHAT???

I was 12, I didn’t know how to be the man of the house, I barely knew enough stuff to get a C in Algebra and now I am supposed to be the man of the house? Crap....

What’s in it for me? We can focus on the me factor. The world centers around me.

Companies start to advertise this way, “Have it your way,” “The customer is always right,” and “Made to order.” When we don’t get things our way, we complain, get angry and voice displeasure.

One thing I can’t stand, mayo. I can’t believe people eat this. It’s so disgusting to me that if a mistake is made, I just...

Losing the battle before the battle starts. I played on a lot of bad teams in sports where the score was determined before the race or competition started. I ran cross country and swam in high school. These are two sports when you can just look at the times and figure out if it’s going to be close or not.

Our team wasn’t good, we went into a lot of meets having no chance. We went out there...