On Friday, the Royal Wedding between Prince William and Catherine Middleton took place.  I watched the video and the Bishop of London's sermon was so great, that I've gone back to the transcript and read it several times.   It is a beautiful message on marriage and so for this blog, I wanted to post some quotes from the Bishop's sermon and share some brief reflections on it.

Here are parts of...

After my affair, something happened in Brian and me. Something shifted in both of our hearts. This time, things didn't just level out and then drop again.  Things changed dramatically after this event.  I believe it started with true forgiveness, for both of us.

That day on my knees when I came to Jesus and felt deep in my heart His unconditional love and total forgiveness toward me, I...

I want to share something with all of you that I went through this weekend.

I (Brian) ran in the PF Chang's Rock-N-Roll marathon this past weekend in Phoenix, Arizona.  I ran to represent xxxchurch.com as well as bringing awareness to the harmful effects that pornography has on one's life.  But more than all that, it is symbolic to my own journey through sexual addiction.

This was the...

God had got my attention and renewed my desire to walk with Him and choose life.  I started to read the Bible again, pray and seek and felt connected with Him again. I was doing better with depression and food issues.  I did bring pain and hurt to Him, I prayed for Brian and us.  But my hope was conditional and when I would worry about Brian and issues of the addiction came up I would struggle...

For this blog, I am pausing our story to share with you one of my favorite songs, ever - O Holy Night.

I wanted to provide these lyrics for you to perhaps meditate on.
When I listen to this song I am deeply moved. The lyrics have always spoken to my heart.  I think that if someone asked me why I love Jesus, I would tell them to listen to the words of O Holy Night - that's why I love him. Here...

Brian and I continued to explore and live in our faith in Jesus.  Our lives felt new and we believed God had meaning and purpose for us.

As I continued to immerse myself in God's word, I felt a tug on my heart.  I felt that God was calling me to move out from living with Brian.  It wasn't just to stop living with him because we weren't married, but I really felt that God wanted me to Himself...

Brian and I sat on our kitchen floor, hugging each other and crying.  I felt compassion and a love for him that I had never felt before.  In his humility and brokenness, I actually saw strength.  It took courage to tell me that he had a problem and didn't know how to stop.  And as I said, I knew that the person who went behind my back, who lied to me and betrayed me was not the real Brian.

We...

Before I pick up where I left off in Part 1,I want to give a little history on where Brian's separate, secret life of sex started....

Brian viewed his first pornographic magazine when he was 13 years old.  He was hooked instantly.  This led to watching pornographic movies and then found phone sex lines.  He justified that this was just how he liked to spend his money.  Not on his car,...

I remember sitting on my bed a little less than two years ago searching the internet for anyone who was beating a porn and sex addiction as bad as my husband had it.  I was also looking for a marriage that survived it.  I typed in the search engine,  "porn sex addiction recovery" "marriage survived porn sex addiction" "victory over porn sex addiction".  Through eyes that were so full of tears...

Welcome to our humble blog.  We are Brian and Tami, a couple who struggled for years with the devastation of pornography/sex addiction and infidelity.    

As we have been walking through recovery, healing and restoration we've sensed God calling us to share our story.  We connected with the amazing people here at xxxchurch.com and were asked if we would like to share our experience through...