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I'll count this as one step farther down the road to getting control again.  One more reason to not fail.  I've had the X3WatchPro monitor on the PC's at work and home for a few months now and with only a few stumbles since then I'd say they are a HUGE help to me.  Those few times were minor (porn is never minor, but they weren't the full on porn-fests of old) by comparison, and just knowing someone could/would see the things I was looking for served to convict me to be honest about it.
 
I've got a band of brothers, there's 5 of us, that meet every 2 weeks for lunch and accountability.  We've all got the X3WatchPro and we've set up our accountability partners in a such a way that we all get someone else from the group.  All the reports also go to one member of our group who hasn't struggled with this - or rather doesn't fall into this pit - as a second fail safe to make sure that no one can find ways around it.  It's working really well.
 
Thank you guys for forcing this 'dirty little (read: filthy HUGE)' secret into the light.
 
Grace and Peace to you,
 
-Kevin McCleery

Because of that confession i have two best friends that i can trust with my life and then another group of 4 guys that meet every sunday night to confess to each other our struggles and carry our burdens.  Sometimes it's not enough in a human mind to think God is watching. But when we installed the thing from xxxchurch that allowed two friends to view everything i went to i kept thinking i cant do this they'll see it and it has lead to my deliverance and ultimately i believe it will lead to the death of lust in my life.  It's funny how satan opperates. he hides with us standing beside us in the dark corner saying it's ok just one last time.  Then he says you can't tell them they wont accept you they'll think your a freak, your a bad person.  But thats not how God works. God is truth. God wants us to admit our failures.  He understands that we can't make it on our own so we need Him and other Christian to keep us accountable and help us live our lives for him. Thanks to xxxchurch i can't remember the last time i looked at porn or masterbated.  This is deffinately the happiest and most free period of my life. There is nothing standing in the way of my relationship with God.

- Bradley

Hi XXX,
 
You guys rock.  What a brave ministry... I heard of you when you visited Westwinds Church in Jackson & then ran into you again on Myspace.
 
I'm 43 years old  and have been in bondage to porn since I was 14 or so.  I had all the normal porn stash... tapes, books, gig's of stuff hidden on my computer.  Even though I was a dedicated/sold out Christian since a 17 years old - porn still owned me.  I'd masterbate 1-4 times a day and couldn't break the habit regardless of prayer, fasting, determination.  The best I ever did was maybe a week.  It made me feel terrible and hindered my relationship with God and eventually I just gave up.
 
Anywhoo... fast forward to 40 years old... wife of 18 years decided to leave for another, broken hearted I turned back to God.  After several months of crying & hurting, I finally decided to give it ALL to God... including things that I held him from like my love life.  I just didn't trust him quite enough to give that to him.  At the time of this final surrender I didn't even notice a change, it was just like any other day.
 
Two weeks later a Christian friend asked me how I was doing against porn...  I was stunned!  Two weeks had passed and I had not given porn a second thought!  How could that happen?  It hadn't happened in the 27 years prior.  Well, now it's been 1 1/2 years FREE.  (well let's say 99.9% free, I've had a few bad moments - but rare)
 
It's all so cool - me thinks surrender is the way!  It's not struggle, fight, determination... it's giving it all to God and He oes the rest!
 
Peace!
 
-Shawn Healey

my name is eddie boeve. i went to porn and pancakes yesterday at daybreak. after the program was over i felt led to become accountable and i went up and told craig gross part of my story and when i got back to church in lowell i told my pastor jason as well. tomorrow i am meeting with him to talk about everything. i have been in bondage to pornography and sexual immorality almost my whole life. which i view as my biggest struggle, and today i vow to make it my biggest victory. i have downloaded your x3 software and intend to take every other action necessary to fight this battle. i use another email most often ***********
 
thanks for what you stand for and what you do
-eddie

I am so thankful that there is someone who is fighting this.. and trying to help.  My family was torn apart by porn.  It kept progressing and getting worse until my dad ended up having an affair.  It breaks my heart to think that there are soo many families being torn apart by porn every day.  It affected not only my dad, but my whole family.  I have had a lot of problems and things to deal with as a result of it.  I haven't had a dad around most of my life, and I will be the first to say that every girl needs a father ... whether they admit it or not.  I wouldn't have admitted it years ago.  I am so thankful that God has turned around the effects of porn in my life, and used it to draw me closer to Him.  After looking for someone to replace the need my dad left, I found that ONLY God can do that.  Praise God for what you are doing, Craig.  I hope that as a result, less families will have to go through what mine did.

-Alyssa

XXX,
I have to thank you guys for doing what you do!  I used to be the kind of
guy who could say that at 46 years of age porn was not an issue for me.  I
was proud that I could count the times that I viewed porn on 2 hands.
Looking back I can see that I was in denial.  A found magazine as a
grade-school kid, a bachelor party in college, a couple of magazines found
on the side of the road, an occasional porn flick at a hotel. I think I
found other more acceptable ways to deal with my sexual issues.

This past year was the toughest year of my life; my mom died, my wife of 27
years divorced me, I had surgery and had to sell the house.  After the
divorce I ended up losing my job as a Pastor because I got drunk at a Church
Arts Conference.  After months of spending time out of work and alone I
began to search the web for porn.  The first time was on my new iphone to
'see if it really was that easy to get porn'.  It is.  After a few times I
thought, 'it's not that bad, I don't have a problem.'  I went online last
night and this morning.  After reflecting on what I had done and feeling
disappointed and shamed, I remembered that a Pastor friend, who struggles
big-time with porn, had told me about XXX Church about 5 or so years ago.  I
went to your website and downloaded the X3 watch software.  Even more
helpful was your featured video about Constance because I have 3 daughters.

-Leland