A quick explanation on my addiction. Been on porn/masturbation for over 12 years, been actually fighting it for about 7-8 years. Now for my actual problem.

I'm on the verge of a major change in my life for the better. However, it does lead to it's own problems. For one, my (uncommitted) accountability partners will be a couple states away in a few months, leading to weak accountability.

To make matters worse, when I fall, I come up with ways to slip past any defenses. This is where my blessing with computers carries a curse: I succeeded. I found a way to render X3Watch useless and leave no trace on my history. In addition to that, I have a stash on my laptop's hard drive that's heavily encrypted (with two passwords even, one password taking you to a "dummy" folder which contains my tax records, and the other leading to the actual stash) and hidden so that even the most trained of people could overlook it.

I need prayer and help in a desperate situation. Right now im typing at about 1:30 A.M. after a porn site round-about. I just don't know what to do.