Well, first off I am so glad this is here. I am glad to finally be able to confess without the judgment that always follows. I am judging myself enough.
I have had a porn addiction for almost 20 years.
Last year I told my wife about the struggles of the last few years and it was rough but she forgave me. I was clean for several months, then Satan started attacking me at work. The stress from this found an outlet in porn again.
Well I have been struggling again and while I have had it for the most part under control - I do have my slips.
Like today - wife and I had a fight about sex and when she left to take the kid to karate I fired up the computer and went through the back door of the X3 software.
I hate myself and what I do.
Prayerfully this will be the last time.