When I was younger my faith was strong in the Lord but I would soon stray away at the age of 16. I was in a strong sexual relationship with my girlfriend of the time, I ended up getting her pregnant and having a son at the age of 17 and shortly after became a born again christian but I would soon fall astray once again with a new sexual relationship that lasted about a year with a different girl (i was 18). About a year and a half ago I fell into an all new sexual relationship with an older woman, myself 19, she 26.. I quickly saught after the Lord and became a youth leader after nearly 2 years of attending the same service every wedsnesday and devoting my life and time to helping others. And once again... I fall away from church and move away.. Started falling into my old ways and coming up with excuses to why it would be okay for me to do the things I did. I then met a girl that love's me for the christian man I am..or was, or am TRYING to be. She too became a born again christian along side of myself and we became abstinant together. We were doing so well but until we recently started falling into our old lustful ways and having pre-maritial sex ALTHOUGH we promised eachother, ourselves and God that we wouldn't..

I've found myself not feeling the way I once did when I would worship in service or even reading the bible.. Has my heart been hardened to the point where I can no longer feel the way I once did?

I was speaking to a friend about this and he was warning me about how if someone falls into the same sin over and over that they can no longer be forgiven because thier appologies would be nothing more than fake and meaningless..?

I'm afraid that, that's what has become of me..