I first starting looking at porn online when I was in the 4th grade. It's been a up and down battle from there. I am married now, am 27 years old, and have a 2 year daughter. I love my wife and daughter so much, and yet my actions say it differently. For some reason, I feel like the rush I get when looking at porn will satisfy, but it never does. It will make my heart race, but it never ever lasts. I know deep down that Christ is the only one who will ever ultimately satisfy me. I know, but I can't seem to fight this. I even know that the solution is to believe the gospel more - to accept the fact that Christ accepts me more than I could ever imagine, that his love for me and his desire for me could make my heart race more than porn ever could. And yet I am a slave to my sinful nature. I imagine it will forever be a battle. Thanks xxxchurch for even having a place to confess this stuff! Sometimes, this is what helps the most.