I've had a porn addiction for I don't even know how long now. I'm 24 and I probably masturbated for the first time around 11 years old. I just discovered this website. I think it's amazing that it exists. I watched several "debates" involving Craig and some other people. Craig seems to get bashed a bit but he handles himself well. It just seems that an absolute ton of people don't think porn is bad. I have always felt it was wrong ever since I can remember (raised as a Christian mind you).

It's just overwhelming how accepted and normal people view it, let alone how easily masturbation is accepted. And I've even bought into it sometimes to sort of ease my conscience when I watch and masturbate. I absolutely hate hate hate hate myself the nanosecond I'm finished. I feel dirty, worthless and worst of all, like I just spit in God's face. And then there's the inevitable prayer that I'll ask for forgiveness while in my head wondering if and when that next time will happen. I go through periods of totally resisting it for weeks, months at the most and then it's just one stupid time and I feel like total crap again.

I want to have faith that if I keep pursuing God, drawing near to Him so He can draw near to me. So I can be like Christ every day in this time in my town. I want to have faith that this will end. Will it? Where is my route out of this hell? How do I freaking turn away? Thanks everyone who makes this site possible. It is needed badly. I know it's cliche but pray for me...