so im still struggling with porn. i have been so drawn to it over the years that i dont have good relationships with my friends and family. I was first introduced to the whole mess when i was in middle school and ever since then its been the worst thing in my life that i have encountered. if i could go back in time i would have stayed away from it but i became interested and curious and kept going with viewing. it has affected my mind and my spiritual relationship. Ever since i became a christian in '06 it has gotten harder to get rid of the mess. the struggle has doubled since in '08. I am now a youth pastor and i still am struggling with the issues. I need to change! i have seeked help from my mentor and a few friends. whom are my accountability partners and i do use Xwatch from xxxchurch.... I am so weak but i have to become strong and fight this battle! its not pretty and i dont want to live my life like this anymore. Its not right. I am a leader in many captivities and people look up to me and they expect me to live holy but i slip and mess up. How can i lead and not follow my own teachings. ugh! please pray for me. i am learning quickly on how i fall into viewing it, what makes me want to do it. I have to much riding on my life with God to let this addiction over rule my life, my happiness and ministry! please pray for me!!!