i've been watching porn and masterbating since i was about 12 years old, and just like everyone else i thought i had discovered gold, little did i know that 13 years later i would still be battling with this terrible plague.. I have practically kept this a secret all these years, and the thought of telling anyone just terrifies me..no one knows but God..Yes i was raised in the church, and consider my self a child of God..about 6 years ago was when i really started combating it, but just as i kept the habit a secret so also did i keep my struggle a secret, i wanted it to be strictly me and God, and on many occasions through prayer and determination i would repent for 2 weeks, sometimes even up to a month, but as quick as night falls, the addiction would return..this cycle has continued up until even today..I am trying so hard to live For God, and be holy like i know he wants me to be, but i keep falling short, i've listened to countless sermons on sexual immorality, even read books about revelations of hell, and what happens to people in hell who died in sexual sin and still i couldn't shake this terrible habit.. the thought of ever been caught in the act terrifies me, because i know alot of people would be disappointed in me..thats one of the main reasons why i want pornography out of my life.. but despite all, i know i have victory in christ, and this terrible habit will cease to exist in my life.. please pray that God gives me the strength and grace to beat this habit for good!!