The online adult chat rooms are the true doors to Satan's playground. I would come home from work and spend time with my wife and kids and wait for them to leave or go to bed and I would jump online as soon as I was alone. My wife is the most beautiful woman I have ever known and all my friends wondered how I ended up with such an angelic beauty. Well, family is gone or in bed and I am online pretending to be someone I am not. I get lost in the world of sexual fantasy and roleplaying in the chatrooms. This becomes my life. I would make love to my wife and fantasize it was the girl I chatted with online the night before. I used my wife to fulfill my deviant mind and live in a fantasy world full lies and deceit. It consumed me. I became a different person. I became secretive,a liar, doubleminded, selfish, self-loving, self-pleasuring and uncaring about anything else except getting online to get my fix. I was in control, so I thought. But I really was in prison of my own making and digging my way to an ultimate death from reality and family. The more I chatted, the more daring I had to get to get my fix. I started chatting with two girls under the age of 17, my oldest daughters age. Not even thinking about the ramifications of what I was doing. I wasn't hurting anyone. They enjoyed the conversations as much as I did right??? One day on the way to my sons basketball game, red flashing lights surrounded us with my wife and three daughters in the car. They got to see me handcuffed and taken away. My secret has now become an open book to all people. I didn't hurt anybody. it was just chat. How far from the truth could I have been. I devestated my family, friends, business and my community because of my selfish private acts. God says whatever we do in the dark will be exposed in the light. Nothing is hidden from His eyes. I was now naked before God and an entire community due to my negligence to not follow Gods word in Job 31.1, " I made a covenent with my eyes not to look at a young women." I was charged with 2 counts of online solicitaion to a minor and given 4 years in jail and 10 years probation. I did the 4 years day for day. My supposed words of, I'm not hurting anybody," was teh biggest lie Satan had fed me and I took it hook, line and sinker. I have been out of jail for two years now and I have never looked back into my sexual sin. God has forgiven me, but family, friends and community don't forget. I have disappointed everyone that I love with the things that i did and although I am born again I must live in the shaddow of my past sins. God has used me in tremendous ways by being able to help other men and families and marriages become free from the bondage of sexual sin. I wouldn't wish what I went through or put my family through on anyone. But God has a plan for everything and provides a way out from under your sin. He can use even a chief of sinners, the scum of the earth, lowly unwanted people to move mountains and to share His Freedom in Christ who broke the chains, tore down the walls and opened the prison doors and set the prisoners free. Christ is now my light and my armor in a dark and cold and unforgiving world. I have learned to take every thought captive to Christ and to not be led into temptation. I am always aware of how easy it is to stumble and fall back into a life of sexual sin. But God has taught me about accountability with others to keep my mind and body pure from unclean thoughts. It is a never ending battle, but with the sword of the Spirit, I fight the good fight now knowing who I now am. I am a child of God and being led by God now and not by worldly lusts which controled my life for almost 30 years. It is possible to overcome with God, but it is impossible to overcome without God. God does His best work in the impossible. I am a living example of that. Fight the good fight and dont give up. No retreat. No surrender. Dont give in to the Devil and he will flee from you. Trust in God with your whole heart and mind and you can have a life free from the bonds of sexual sin.