I stumble and fall all the time it seems like. After I mess up once, it seems like I need to mess up again and again. Even when I feel like I hit rock bottom, I am good for a few days, then the urge comes once again. What do I do? Mess up as usual. I need God now more than ever! So why am I not trusting him with this problem? I know this problem is not bigger than him. I know other people have and had this problem, and they are fighting it. Why is it so hard for me?? I find myself in tears sometimes because it seems like I always disappoint God and myself. Why does this sin have me on loose chains? Its like I can walk around but in the end, I cant stray to far away from that sin that controls my life. I need you God. I need you now. I want so bad to take these chains off that bind me. How do I do that? I can I be free?