I'm a 57 year old gentle man who has been married to the same beautiful, grace-filled woman for 37 years. I am confounded by numerous addicitions, some holy, most unholy. For the last decade, my wife and I have endured numerous medical complications that have rendered the physical aspect of our love life, difficult, if not impossible. I know and understand the commands of scriptures, and knew at an early age...19..that it was better to marry than live a lust filled life. I am a former pastor , and work with individuals with brain injury.and other catastrophic disabilities....for over three decades. Hypersensitive, intense, and in great need of physical intimacy as well as the spiritual and soulish aspects of relationship. I love my wife with a great deal of commitment given our trials, our sin, and our fallen natures.... I have confessed sins of masturbation accompanied by pornographic or prepornographic images to my beloved...and she has forgiven me as much as it is possilbe to do so. Physical adultery has never occured in our marriage. She was abused by significant others in her childhood and youth but that too is under the Blood. Your prayers and God inspired advice is coveted.... Thank you. Am aware of xxx.church accountability software...but need to know how to live a mentally celibate life in our depraved culture. Under His Blood... kniwdup