I like the thought of opening up and pouring out my soul to other people, to other men that know too real the struggle that occurs with pornography, masturbation, the world of fantasy and the blurring lines of reality. I love to think that other men, though they feel in bondage, can encourage one another, look at me and my chains, and say, "brother I know what it's like."

I'm thinking of the movie "The Christmas Carol" and Scrooge's business partner Jacob Marley (I think that was his name). I'm thinking of the giant chain that is around him and how he looks so weary, so exhausted, so utterly spent at pulling that chain with him wherever he goes. I think porn is kind of like that for all of us. A weight, a burden, something that no matter how hard we try, we just get entangled more and more. In our own strength. But then something else is offered.

A gift of confession. We can share with each other the honest struggle to remain sober and to not take another drink of the fountain that promises us whatever we want. We can be open, honest, raw, and real to each other and to say, "hey fellas, it's been a tough day." I know that no temptation has seized except what is common to man, and that God will always provide for us a way out of it. Sometimes it's easier said than to see the truth of that Word, but to remember that the Word is truth then we know, it's a law and it's how it is. We do have the inner strength to beat this thing, but it's through God and honesty with each other and ourselves.

Dear friends, I want to leave the porn thing behind. I don't want to live in it any longer, because, well I want to be a man of God more than anything. I want to be a good husband and daddy (when the time comes because I'm still single) but I know this is something that could easily divide and destroy any relationship. I appreciate you listening and letting me get some of the junk out today. Thanks fellas!