Hi im Kj i'v ben doing this from the age of 12 when i sexual abused by a family member and was told to dress as a girl.I started likeing it and got to the point i like to dress when i can and it make me fell good and i started looking at trannie and shemale porn and im find it is hurtting my marriage and all my loved one.If i keep it up i know i'll lose my loveing wife and my family and friendsI cant lose my wife of 5 years and my kids to this addiction.It making me anger at my self and others even my kids and family and i can not have this in my house.I just do not know what to do any more about likeing to dressing up I just can't help myself. I am so guiltridden but once a week an overwhelming urge posseses me to search out transexual pornography and masturbate to it. It is such a shameful secret that I've been hiding for so long. I know that it is wrong but I cannot stop myself pleas help me.

Kj