Im a Pastor of a small congreagation in Miami Fl. Before entering Ministry I have struggled with pornagraphy since I was 12 years of age. One day at a friends house he took out a playboy magazine that his father had under his bed and we watched the entired magazine that evening. this became a habit anf Everytime his parents we leave home we will go under the bed and watch more. Then I got my first computer and internet access. It seemed like I wanted to watch more. Pictures were not enough. I started watching videos and DVD's through my computer. I began serving God and I was clean for about five years. But Then after getting married and starting our mnistry it seems like this ghost is huanting me again. I lOve the Lord and I want to serve him. But something I fall and watch porno when my wife is not home. I'm thinking of leaving Ministry and just calling quits. This is affecting my family ,church and friends. This problem has also produce great amount of lust when seeing other women. I try to play it off but it's getting harder and harder.

My question is should I quit ministry and leave it all behind. Our church is in the process of re-building,under construction but I feel that Im hindring this process.

PLease help!!!!!!!!!!!!

OScar