I got my first glimpse of porn when I was in 6th grade. After several years or so I came to the realization that I was addicted and that there was nothing I could do to stop, so I gave in completely and allowed pornography and its distortion of my mind's view of healthy sex to take over. As i dived deeper and deeper in the sin nothing would satisfy me as much so I began to view more disgusting perversions of sex. I had been raised my whole life as a christian and for these years of my life I had been hiding from God, but the conviction of the Holy Spirit was unbearable when watching porn. I took this as being because I was lusting after women, so I, in my state of sex-crazed mania, decided to watch porn without women in it. Although I have never been sexually attracted to men the idea that something sexual and something more perverted than anything I had previously viewed before aroused me. However after a while the conviction came back, but this time it wasn't the sex itself that I was attracted to, but the idea of something so blatantly sexually perverted was what i was hooked to. I have been battling porn fiercely for the past year with some success, but when I do watch it, its still mostly gay porn because of the conviction of lusting after a woman is too much for me.
Anyways i believe that porn, or sexual sin in general, leads to homosexuality in the long run. The more and more that your mind gets distorted by sin the more and more you will need to find something new to satisfy you. Thankfully our God satisfies all desires and when we live a life of worship these things fall out of our lives.
Has anyone else had experiences like this?





