The last few days I have stumbled back into porn. Pray that i break this addiction. I keep telling myself not to and i feel god telling me but i do it anyways. I regret it everytime. I find when i write in I tend to be more succesful at my struggle. I have lived a life filled with sexual sin and I am ready to break free. I want to sit down with a pastor and talk about this so i ask you all to pray that i find the right one weather it be my own pastor or one from another church. I have been seeking the lords direction on this. when i first got saved i was totally delevered i went two years porn free and began to see tremedous deliverance in many areas of my life includeing drugs which i still am six years sober. after two years I found myself temped and gave in to porn since than my walk with the lord has been on a rollar coaster up and down. I am ready to press into him and have that amazing walk and relationship i once had. I would also like some prayer on finding a christian girlfreind. I have not dated for quite some time due to many things most i have worked through. what mainly stops me now is fear and acceptance.

Dear God

Lord jesus i ask forgiveness for my sins. For the porn the immorality and dissobediance. They have ruled my life but we are more than conquers. I can do anything through christ who strengthens me. I want to live with obediance with you from now on. Help me to see you and your plan. Help me to win others for you. I want to see you the way i once did. open my eyes to your charicter and love. Help others who are sincer in staying away form porn. This is a battle worth fighting. Help us to be successful in our fight.

Amen