"For I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate."
That about sums up my relationship with porn-- I know that porn is destructive, yet I always say that "this is the last time", that I'll never look at it again. I try and set up a filter or something like it, only to find ways around it. So I stand here, broken and despairing of my sin, confessing that I am a sinner, that I need help. It's not an easy place to be, but a necessary one. May the Savior take over my life so what I want is what he wants, and that I do not do "the very thing I hate".