I'm 22 years old and I've been addicted to pornography and masturbation for a long time... It's been a part of my life since I was 10 or 11, I think. I really don't even remember when I first started watching it. I never had much religious conviction growing up so even though I wasn't proud of watching it, I never felt this convicted. I became addicted to drugs and alcohol from my first drink at age 12 and for 7 years struggled with that. That put me in jail and nearly cost me everything. However I am grateful that it brought me to Christ. I got sober in AA and my sponsor led me to Christ (which is a huge step of courage for anyone to do in AA - Christ is a taboo topic in there). That was 3 and a half years ago. For a while I was just happy to be free from drugs. God really did just take that away. I don't struggle with that anymore. Granted I did a lot of housecleaning, but it's not even an issue anymore (thanks and praise to God). However I soon realized that my pornography and masturbation were becoming an even harder addiction to break. I've prayed about it, had others pray for me, I've tried using AA's 12 steps (admittedly half-heartedly), I've gone to a CR-type thing at my church, I've got a filter on my computer, but not on my phone (its a palm pre and there isn't one available). I'm embarrassed and ashamed. I'm just starting school to be a youth pastor, I'm engaged to a wonderful woman, and I have a lot of pride about my spiritual walk. I know that's wrong, but it's true and I need ti admit it. I need help. I think I know the answer, but whenever I try to put it all together, I slack off in some area (like I'll pray a lot without accountability, or accountability without humility, or humilty without action). Everytime I think I'm doing good, I fall short. I don't know what I want out of all this... I just needed to get it off my chest. I'm just ready to admit that I don't know what I'm doing and I'm ready to do things another way...