hello!
this was originally on the prayer wall, but I think its more of a confession

So im knew here and im struggling. Im born again, and i have been really witnessing God working in my life, but it seems like the closer I get to him, the harder it is to let go of this.

i've talked with my pastor, and one of the leaders in my church, they've been very understanding about it. I cant shake porn!

I think it really started when i got into a career of radio, it was sex drugs (not so much the drugs) and rock and roll around the clock...which is really bad when you're already addicted to women.

I need a change, i need to stop. It changed me, it made me so torn it ruined a relationship and is making me struggle with staying in Gods presence.

please pray for me. I need the strength and the support, and im open to advice.

its not just regular porn either, since ive been in orgies and had many group encounters...it desensitized me to the basic stuff, which makes me feel horrible, i miss the blessing that was...no IS my relationship, but i know God cant continue the restoration until i get a hold on this, im tired of relapsing!