i thought i had my life all together , i started going to churh, i started to witness to peple , i was starting to feel the presence of God in my life. then i started to watch porn at night and now it really seems like i am growing cold , like there is nothing really good in me any more, i feel eroded out like wood at the beach. this has been hapining in my life for months now and i feel like im losing my conectin to my fater God ,and his son jesus. i dont really feel much joy anymore, i will laugh and smile to people but really i just feel hallow, i was wandering how i can escape this sin in my life and continue on with my ministry. i love to tell people about jesus but it feels wrong telling people about jesus when i have mess in my life. i truly love the lord and i want to spend my whole life serving him , but i do not want to continue in sin can you guys point me in the right direction. i really need help