I'm putting my name on this to validate it as a confession of my sin and shame. I would really love to hear someone receive this in Jesus Name, and remind me that I am forgiven in Christ.

I too struggle. I have tried accountability partners in the past and it has been SO one sided.

I confess to you that while my wife was away on a family trip over the last ten days that I really struggled. It wasn't even hours after she had left that I was sitting online, battling against porn. I will say though, that the Lord is teaching me where the pitfalls are, more and more with each small victory, and with each humiliating defeat.

At one point during the week, I literally had to yell outloud, "This is NOT ME!" Overall, I would say that there was victory in the online area of temptation; I was able to walk away. I've already installed the x3watch program. However, the enemy showed me more in his bag of tricks.

My wife told me to masturbate while she was gone. She told me to do this "before I needed to." She's aware of my long time struggle with pornography. Later in the week, there were shows on cable, not even that I had to pay for, that showed all kinds of sexual activity. I didn't turn away or turn it off. In fact, I dove into lust like a dope addict. It was disgusting.

I've gotten rid of the movie channels that put this stuff out like its candy. I've repented of my lust, confessed it to the Lord, and now I'm confessing it to you.