I was introduced to porngraphy at an early age. Touched by different men in my life in my elementary school age. I have been masturbating since then. I have struggled with this for years on and off. I had been fine for several years of my marriage, until I found my husband was watching porn on his phone. Which just open a door that I wish never opened. Knowing my husband was this way hurt me because I felt he desired someone else. Now we both struggle with this. I am a christian. Like many other stories on the site. This is not the person I want to be. I have I get these thoughts and feelings that really wear on me. Sometimes I feel I just want to give in. All I can say is God help me. I even find myself dreaming of sex with other people and I have to even fight the wanting to lingre on those thoughts. I have the urge and feeling now but so far I have held on. I try to stay on him but I need help myself.