I am a very strong willed person when it comes to different things in life except women on pornsites I Have an addiction problem and I won't stop at just porn I've even started playing virtual sex games I hate doing it more than people think but at the same time I enjoy it I'm scared and lonely my wife doesn't really pay much attention to me anymore and that scares me so I resort to something that feels really good and thats a bad thing I haven't been to church in a month and a half because I feel as if the church is to closed minded I would really like a church that was more open minded to other things than thinking that were all supposed to give up our life to an entity but you know I don't think that the church understands the truth is that we can't fathum how great god really is or even what he wants us to do I just want to find my purpose in this life and find my kindred spirit within but some people in the church don't understand my journey through the abbiss I need someone to talk to I need something to keep my mind occupied I'd love to do online classes but I'm in a class called dbt for borderline personalitie disorder but I am not my illness I know that much I just need help like everyone else I'm broken could someone please help to fix me?