I recently just got married, to a man I was with for 2 years. I always knew he had a bit of porn problem, but he wasn't very open with me about it, and I chose to not think about it much. We were involved sexually during those two years, so I figured that I had no right to judge even if he was. I just prayed about it. We recently married, and I felt sexual freedom. My problem was participating in a sexual relationship with a man I wasn't yet married to, and now I was allowed to. I've been in a whole other world since we got married, because I've felt so great! Tonight, like many other nights in the past few months, I've had a very strange urge to pray for my husband against porngraphy. When I got home, I looked on his personal computer (something I told myself I'd never do), and lo and behold, I found many, many websites. I sobbed for hours. I felt so betrayed, disgusted, heartbroken... how could my husband do this to me? I feel as though everything i love about him amounts to nothing now. It sounds horrible. I'm supposed to respect my husband. To be honest, I don't have any respect right now for him. I came to this website hoping for encouragement. I will be discussing this with my husband, but I'm angry and hurt, because I've confronted him about a few times, and he lies every time. I know that although he has lusted after another woman, that it does not excuse me from being a godly wife. I know that. I just need to get my hurt out, or I'm afraid I will take it out on him.