I am a young newly wed with a husband who has struggled with porn. We were very open with our struggles when we were dating and so before we ever got engaged I knew of his addiction, but he assured me he was recovering from it and meeting me was the final nail in the coffin for his addiction. Well, I obviously wouldn't be on here if this were actually true.

I completely trusted him until shortly after we were married, I found a ton of sights visited on our home computer, dated for two nights before our wedding. (I found it through xwatch). I was devestated but he assured me that his best man had to have been the one who looked at it because he stayed the night that night and it wasn't my husband. I believed him, but since that day I have caught him several times with little things. A few websites here and there, some questionable movies on netflix. With the exception of a few confessions he told me they were from before we were married.

Last week I was google imaging something and decided to glance at the history just to check up on my husband. I found tons of pictures viewed that dated from the beginning of the current month to atleast 4 months back. When I confronted my husband he was speechless at first, but then told me he has no idea what all that is. He was begging me to believe him but of course I did not, until he started bawling. Then I thought he must be telling the truth because he was crying a lot and getting angry that I wouldn't believe him. I decided maybe it was a virus, but then later took all his work schedules I could find (because they change a lot) and compared them to the time and dates on the history, this confirmed my fears. All the times matched perfectly with times where he wasn't working and I was, and when there was long periods of time spent viewing pictures, he had the entire day off while I worked all day. I showed my new evidence to my husband and he became hysterical, crying uncontrollably. I thought he was about to confess but instead he told me he doesn't know how to show me he didn't do it.

He is still telling me it wasn't him. What do I do? I don't believe him at all, but I love him and want this to be over. I think he has probably told himself he doesn't need to confess because he will never do it again. I have accused him of lying to the point where he took his computer and smashed it. (We have another still). He tells me he wouldn't be like this if he were lying. I told him I will forgive him if he confesses but he still won't. I can handle the truth, I can't handle the lie. Why can't he just confess?