When is going to be the last time that I watch/do this? How many times am I going to "repent"? I guess I don't know what true repentance is. I am a christian and know Jesus died for my sins. Pornography has remained fairly dormant in my life for the past years, but recently hit hard. The devil is given me false hope that this picture or video will bring you the satisfaction that you need. I need Jesus more than ever. I do not want to go on with life, clinging to this stuff to bring me "satisfaction". I have been down this path before, but I haven't let God fully take over because deep down I still want it. How can I let go of this sin. I have so much to give to the world and this sin is keeping me from expressing it. I need to realize that I don't need to look at that girl and it's going to be o.k. if I don't look at pornography. I am just to stubborn to realize how much better off I would be without looking at porn. It is progressive, as I've known for years. When am I going to realize it fully? I love God and I know he has a plan for me and this sin in my life. I just want to take that first step and deny sin from my life. Pray that God takes control.