My pornography addiction has taken many different twists and turns throughout the years. I am almost strictly addicted to the naked female body. In the past month I turned away from many porn sites in search of something more interactive. I thought that as long as I kept it from being anything physical or person-to-person I was alright. But the chat sites that I recently became addicted to began to control my life.
My youth pastor discussed XXX Church at a small group event for guys this past spring. Until this point I didn't consider my addiction as a struggle and that as long as I kept it "at bay" it was no worry. Little did I know that this struggle has the ability to turn into a beast, consuming literally every part of a man's life. I began to reflect on who I am compared to what I want to be. I realized that I could not battle pornography alone, so last week I emailed my youth pastor and asked him to be my accountability partner through X3watch.
I am really encouraged by the software because I see it as a stepping stone, a method of empowerment rather than restraint. I still have the choice of visiting a chat site or another porn site, but I also know the emptiness that these sites bring. I do not want to feel empty, but fulfilled in the body of Christ. The other set of eyes is nice, though.