I'm a 16 year old boy, and I feel pornography tearing me part almost daily. Every time I swear to myself I will never do it again, but then two weeks later I'm right back at it. As a followed of Christ, I know better than to be doing this, but it's just so easy to take my phone and go on google. I don't even like the stuff any more, but I keep coming back expecting it to excite me. It's disgusting. I also have a girlfriend tht I have been with for over a year and a half, so that adds to my guilt. I have gotten to the point where I basically hate myself for being stuPid enough to repeatedly put myself on tht situation. I constantly feel a need to physically punish myself for it (just to be clear, I am NOT talking about suicide). I need Gods help, but I don't know where to begin. I know he won't magically heal me; but I need his guidance. Please some one give me instruction or something. I hate living this way, I REALLY hate pornography. It's controlling me. I almost never cry, but just writing this is causing me to break down. I'm hurting And really need help