Teens - Confessions

Struggle

by User-submitted on September 6 2010 in Teens - Confessions | Comments

I accepted Jesus into my life two years ago at a church camp. It was rockin and rollin for a few weeks after the camp and then it got to the point where i was back looking at porn and beating off almost daily. I've been caught by my parents looking at porn on more than one occasion and I feel guilty for a few days and im right back glued to the computer screen. I have promised God many times i would stop and i would make a good solid month or two and id slip up once and it was all over. Ever since the last time i got caught (about a month ago) porn hasnt been the issue. It's beating off thats been getting me. I constantly feel like Satan is right beside and trying to guide me to beat off by putting thoughts in my head and making me think about things i shouldnt. I also have done things with my girlfriend (not sex) that i know i shouldnt have. This i have stopped altogether. Masturbation has been my biggest struggle for 3 years now. I do my best to stop and i can go a feew weeks without doing it and i get overtaken by temptation but i found a solution for myself. There is a song by Pillar called Without A Fight and when i listen to it, i get pumped up and i feel like Satan is right in front of me and i yell at him that i wont go down without bleeding and that i have more willpower than he thinks. Now just the thought of being tempted makes me laugh. Right now as im typing i feel a burden being lifted from me. XXXChurch.com i want to say thank you for this website because this is probably the smartest thing i have done in a long time. Thank you so very much.