Hey All. My name is Abbey, and I am a student leader at my church. I also struggle with a porn addiction. I have confessed to my mother, mentor, and youth pastor. I stopped.... mostly. A couple weeks ago I slipped up and my mentor (who i meet with every week) said that eventually (if I kept this and my drug/smoking habit) up, I would have to step down. I then made a vow never to do that junk again. The next night (after my small group) I went on my favorite chat room and did my thing (I'm what you'd call a 'submissive,' and a pretty good one at that). I told my mentor and she basically said we'd have to re-evaluate my leadership position. Then over the weekend at a teen camp, I asked my entire youth group for forgiveness (not going into detail or anything, just saying I hadn't lived like a Christian). They forgave me. I've been fighting the urges all week (this is Weds. night), but my greatest fear is that when my youth pastor gets back from the Middle School camp and meets with me and my mentor, that he'll tell me I have to step down. I will never be able to forgive myself if that happens. Being a leader, belonging to something, is all I have left. Please pray for God's mercy.