I have constantly struggled with the internet. I find that when i get bored in life that’s when I go to the internet for entertainment. I have struggled with my porn addiction for going on 6 years now. Some might not say that’s a long time but me for it’s a never ending cycle. I have tried numerous times to stop looking at porn on the computer but between the pop up on computers, the stupid picture messages your friends send you as forwards and just things you see on TV. It doesn’t help me beat this addiction. I realize the sex industry is picking up and women and men are wearing fewer closes to fit in to the world around us. I walk down the street and stare at all the beautiful women and that’s one of the many things that gets my mind rolling on all the bad thoughts.

I think my major thing is that I have never really had someone my age to really talk to. I just graduated high school and am getting ready to head off to college. i realize college is like the worst place for addictions as your addiction is likely to get worse upon interring. Between needing someone to talk to I need someone that will push me to read the bible ect. I have never been very spiritual. I go to church a few weekends a month. I don’t read the bible. I rarely pray. I’m just headed down the wrong path and I need help.

This in my opinion is my last ditch effort to get help before I permanently head down the wrong broken path of destruction. I desperately want to find god and do his will but I also want to beat this horrible addiction so someday I can tell others my story and help them to.