since I was about 17yrs old I started to get into a lot of sexual things. My boy friends wanted me to have phone sex with them and it turned into a regular thing. I have my good days and my bad days. It seems like I will go for about a month or 2 and then I start pleasing my self and finding random porno sights to look at on the internet. I am in full time missions and it's killing me. I have to confess that I really need help and I don't know where else to go. Even when I have my family and close friends around I get so tempted. For me, it's almost like I can feel when lustful people are around me. Almost like it's in the atmosphere. Please if you have any suggestions I ask that you comment. I want to be free of this bondage that's holding me back.