I didn't even know how or that girls masturbated until a few months ago. I thought it was something only guys struggled with, and although it was a sin people didn't expect guys not to do it. And, while I've been raised a christian, I didn't think I was that sheltered and thought I'd heard about everything already. But female masturbation was something I'd never talked to anyone about before. I'd had the millions of purity talks and had decided to remain a virgin until marriage.

I was reading a secular blog that gave sex advice to girls and for the first time heard about female masturbation on there. It said it was a great way to learn what pleases you before you have sex the first time, and even told those choosing to save sex for marriage that it was a way to get ready for your wedding night. I believed all this and vaguely remembered my mom (a christian woman) saying that it wasn't wrong. I used all of this information to justify my actions, even though I knew they weren't pure.

As soon as I started my thoughts and desires also became more and more unpure. I finally convinced myself that something that was making me feel this way couldn't be biblical. But it felt so good, and was new and fun. I have never experienced the "shoulder angel" conversation until all this started. I heard satan telling me that "it wasn't hurting anyone" and "if it made me feel good it wasn't wrong" and listened even though I knew he was the one telling me those things.

I can't believe how this has affected me. I feel that I will struggle with this temptation for the rest of my life. I haven't had the courage to tell anyone about this until now. I'm scared that people will think I'm gross or that I'll cause them to be curious and try for themselves. I know this is satan talking again, but I'm just not brave enough yet.

This site is such a comfort. I know my struggle is not bad at all compared to others', but I'm glad to finally get some answers and find out that I'm not alone in this.

Any advice on how to go about a face to face confession?