I have had a problem falling in love with women for the past 8 years. I have searched the internet high and low for resources that deal with this, and I am at a loss. I've looked into Exodus Ministries, and they don't have any groups readily available to me in my area. I also have gone to my church and didn't find much relief there either. They were supportive, but didn't have any real guidance or assistance beyond prayer to offer. I hate myself for wanting to live with a woman, and be intimate with one, but the truth remains, I yearn to live with, be loved by, and taken care of by a woman. I am seeing a therapist, and a pyschologist, and since they aren't opposed to the idea of me finding a woman, there isn't a lot of assistance with battling the emotions.

So, help! I know this is a sex/porn site... My struggles with being attracted to women started a few years ago, because I regularly watched internet porn, and I stumbled across women with women porn, and then I found myself lusting after women. I no longer really watch porn, so my struggle has progressed to longing for a lustful relationship with a beautiful woman.

Are there any support groups, or resources or people out there that can help me with this?? I don't want to walk away from God, but I can't fight this alone, and I've been working hard and trying to fight it, but I'm losing doing this alone. All assistance welcome, besides condemnation or bigotry. There is therefore no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus... and that is why I am here. I do not want to defile my body masterbating with thoughts of a woman I am in love with, and I do not want to commit emotional or imagination adultury when I am married to God the Father.

Thoughts????