Hi,
I'm 21 years old struggling with masturbation, i feel so bad for doing this and i really want to stop. I am virgin, even thought dating a non-Christian once almost lead me to give myself, but I tried to be strong and God helped me with that. My problems with sexuality started when i was child suffering from sexual abuse, the guy was a teenager and i was only a child. I still have the images in my head. Since then, I grew up keeping this secret from my parents and everyone else. i always had thoughts about sex. As a teenager, I started watching porn movies all the time. Now, I live alone and need God's help to stop doing this, i never talked with nobody, never admitted, only God knows, but now it is time. I cannot live this way. I am also a Christian involved with worship at my church. This is killing me spirituality and emotionally, so i need help. My desire is really keep myself waiting in purity to the one God has to me since I have never had a boyfriend. Loneliness, feelings of rejection, and inferiority made do that even more. I need help..........