Hi, I'm a 21 year-old virgin. I'm a believer and I'm seeking to follow Christ. But I have a very high sex drive. I discovered this when I was about 12. I started masturbating and I knew it was wrong even though I didn't have a name for it. I felt really dirty and quit after a few weeks. I haven't since... mostly because the thought makes me feel so dirty. I've been dating an amazing guy for 2 years and we've decided not to kiss. I guess my problem is I'm just really frustrated... I want to be touched and kissed, I want to seduce and have sex. I know God has given me the power to get over this. It's just so hard. I know hard core porn is wrong so I stay away... the problem is I excuse other things that don't seem as bad. I pretend it's just innocent curiosity but I know it's not helping me. My mind is the worst, it's totally impure. I'm starving sexually. I want to get married but the timing is his, and he's not ready. I feel like running away. I love him but I can't stand to be around him... because he's a guy and I want guy attention so much. I need Jesus' help. I'm sure everyone thinks I'm fine, including my boyfriend... but I feel like I'm drowning. How do I turn this thing off? (at least until he's ready to get married)