So, I've posted a confession on here before, a while ago. that was the first time I admitted me watching porn and masterbation was an issue for me. I did talk with two people, which helped for a while. Just knowing that two other people knew my secret made me feel like a bad person for a while. These two people either ignored my struggle or one person made it seem like it was no big deal, just to forget about it and move on. I wish it were that simple, just telling myself to stop and then id be done. But its not that simple, I get tempted and I fall, sometimes alot. Im pretty sure I know I need someone to hold me accountable, someone who is not afraid to talk with me about this. I am sooo scared to talk with anyone about this again, because im so ashamed. I feel like im living a double life. Im the good girl, the one with the right priorities at church and with people from church, but then at home I can be into this junk, porn and masturbation. Being a girl, I also feel like im so alone, no other girl could possibily get into this discusting stuff. And it is soo gross, I dont know why I do what I do. My first instinct is to isolate myself, not talk with anyone about anything personal, keep the conversation on okay topics and keep this struggle to myself. No one else wants to know what im dealing with, they wouldn't care. but I know this is the enemy and he wants me to keep struggling so isolating myself will not make me beat this.