It's been about four years since I fell into a pornography and masturbation addiction. I was in college, left largely alone and lonely, and despite my faith in Christ, my curiosity got the best of me. Before I knew it I was in over my head. I have been struggling with this completely on my own and gotten nowhere.

Things have finally reached a head. I am so tired of carrying this guilt around. I am so tired of feeling like the only Christian woman with this problem and I am so tired of letting this be a wall between me and a closer relationship with Christ. I am preparing to be married in a little over a year and my fiance deserves so much better. The time to start saving our marriage is now.

I've been terrified of confessing this to anyone for so long, for fear of being ostracized and disgraced. I hope that after taking this step, I can take the next step towards accountability. I would covet your prayers and advice. It's so good to know I'm not the only one out there.