When I became a Christian in college my life was changed for the better, but I had a lot of issues with self-image. I had dealt with eating disorders and depression, but never had ventured to look at porn or find fulfillment there until one day when I was at my apartment and a pop up ad came up for a porn site, I clicked on it and down I went into a spiral of addictions to porn and sexual chat. I would do it alone in my room, usually late at night so no one would walk in on me or hear me. I didn't do it all the time, but just every so often. I would get on kicks and do it everyday for 3-4 days to a week and then wouldn't get on for a month. I thought everything would be better after I spent a summer serving Christ in a 2 month mission project, but when I got home and discovered I had wireless internet at my new house I started again, late at night or in the secret of my own room so no one would notice. It has been binding me and i am now setting myself free. I am not going to be a slave to porn and sex chat anymore. I am confessing this and wanting to make a change. I don't want to have to tell my husband, one day, that he isn't good enough because I have been addicted to porn for years. It is bad enough that I am tainted from this stint with it. I want my beloved to know that I am his and he is mine and I do not want to be tied to anyone/thing else again.