Life in a gutter
Letter to myself:
You have loved the feeling of the thrill of what you have seen. You have enjoyed the high of what you have shared. But even with all these fun times you just never seem to realise how much you are destroying yourself, physically, emotionally, financially and mentally.
Your relationships with your family and friends are being pulled apart because all you have been focused on is the next time you get to look at the images and videos. You prefer to spend time in your fantasy world rather than dealing with the reality of the life and lives around you.
You prefer to be in your fantasy world because its easier to be someone else than trying to be the true self you should be to your family, friends and now wife.
Do you know what your actions are doing to these people who care for you? Do you know that these people you have talked to online either just want your money or don’t care about you as much as you think they do? Do you realise that your actions could get you into more trouble than just being caught in the act by your parents, friends or wife?
You need to stop this behaviour before you will end up a sad, lonely person that no-one wants to be around because you can’t be trusted. No one trusts someone who lies about things they know they are doing wrong.
Get your mind out of the gutter, look up and around at those who care for you and want the best for you, not in the false reality of people that don’t even know the real you.
Letter from my sex addict:
My actions make me feel good. I love the feeling of being someone else and being able to escape the issues that are going on in my life.
I love the sexual thrill i get from looking at pictures, videos and online chat room. These girls and women are so gorgeous and give me the attention i desire. I don’t get this from women in real life so i love how these girls/ women rub me the right way.
I love getting home before anyone else and looking at videos I couldn’t look at with others around. I like the private time i can have in my fantasy world, its so much easier there than in the hard to handle real life I have at the moment.