I’ve been wanting to drop you a line for a long time now. About a year ago I wrote you an email in desperation that described how I’d seen God do these amazing things in other areas of my life but my work ethic seemed to just fall to pieces when it came to porn. I was pretty broke and My Pilgrimage looked great, but I didn’t have the money.
First, I wasn’t expecting you, this guy that seemed crazy busy and super important to write back at all, let alone in a few hours (which you did).
Second, you actually read my email and you said, “So you can’t afford $500. What can you afford?” I told you. You set me up with an account for MP and I did it. I’m still doing it. It’s been positively the most impactful thing I’ve done in my porn addiction. It has made such a difference where my wife wanted to email you herself to say thank you.
It had temporarily wrecked everything for a while. I felt really cynical towards the church, I was super raw, and just resentful that all this stuff was getting rammed down my throat and it was actually part of the problem–but to have a ground-leveling event was necessary for me. I had a lot of ideas built up on this flawed foundation, and slowly God’s been working in those deep places of hurt in my life. Porn has had so much power over me because I believed that I was rejected and inadequate.
But I know it’s not true. A lot of people read the parable of the hidden treasure and say, “Wow, the kingdom of God is worth so much that we should be willing to give everything we have for it.” Just recently someone flipped that on its head for me and said, “Every parable before and after that has God as the man, and the world as the field–why do we suddenly interpret ourselves as the man in this parable?” No man, we’re hidden treasure and God found us and said, “This guy is worth everything I have.” It’s more difficult to feel rejected when you know how much you’re worth to someone else.
So anyways, thanks Craig–for writing back last year, and for hooking me up with MP when I couldn’t afford it. That act made a huge difference in my life, in my wife’s life, and I read every word of every email you put out. Keep up the good work!