I want to be honest with you guys. We like to deal with things on a surface level. It’s like washing the outside of the car, but knowing that there is food all between the seats, and trash everywhere inside. There is nothing more embarrassing than being caught in the act of something. Picking your nose, pulling out a wedgie, or scrambling to change the radio or TV when someone has barged in on you can be very uncomfortable. We are very quick to say we are sorry. We make promises as often as the sun rises and sets. But nothing changes. Why? Because we don’t think that whatever we were caught doing was really that bad. Until we try to stop and find that we have lost control.
Supporting a porn habit can be very costly. It is easy to become disgusted with yourself because it’s not like this is something you do out in the open. It is behind closed doors, closed curtains, secret, secret, secret, hush, hush, hush. It makes you paranoid, always looking over your shoulders, trying to cover your tracks. You can’t look at women properly because you see them as objects instead of flesh and blood human beings with souls and feelings and meaning and purpose.
I remember taking all of my porn (at that time) and burning it in the fireplace as a symbolic gesture to signal a fresh start. I hoped that the ashes that lay in the fireplace were the remainder of my addiction. Sadly, I would open my wallet shortly after that and purchase some new material. The problem was that I only dealt with the surface. I was totally unable to deal with the root problem. I had lost control over this “thing.”
Admit it. Go ahead. You are in over your head. You want out but can’t stop. It is scary. I mean after all we are supposed to be strong and able to do anything we put our minds to. But THIS is the beginning of your breakthrough. No one knows a building better than the architect. Who knows a creation better than the inventor? God has made a way out of this horrible mess through his son Jesus Christ. Forget about all of your bad images of God, church, Jesus etc.
Here is the reality: If you look for God with your whole heart you will find him! He is inviting you to start the path to freedom by trusting him. Hear what He says in the Bible: …..Anyone who wants to approach God must believe both that he exists and that he cares enough to respond to those who seek him (Hebrews 11:6 The Message).
God will respond to a sincere desire to seek him and be set free from this awful habit.
So the first step is? Be honest about where you are. Then ask God to help. He will! “Ask the Savior to help you. Comfort, strengthen, and keep you. He is willing to aid you. He will carry you through!”