Let’s do a case study together.

The story you’re about to read is 100% true.  The events and feelings that occurred happened.  Events occurred in real time (about 4 years ago).  No names were changed to protect Jeff Fisher.

I worked in a denominational office in the Northeast.  Our office had an unprotected computer at work.  I had struggled with looking at porn and masturbating since I was in Middle School.  I carried my struggles into my Christian life, my marriage, and my ministry career.

I had occasional struggles at home on the computer, but they were finding their way into my work.  Soon I was surfing for porn and masturbating every time I was in the office, sometimes going for 2-3 hour binges when my boss was not around.

I confessed my struggles to my wife once and my boss once.  It was horrible.  I almost got fired and was asked to go into counseling.  I was told by my boss that I would be fired if it happened again.  I was told my wife that if it happened again, we would need to leave the Northeast and I would have to resign my pastorate.

After a few months of counseling, I felt like I was getting better.  I stopped looking at porn on any computer, and managed to stop masturbating for a while.  I stopped going to counseling and continued at my job determined to do good.

We did install content filters on my work computer, and they blocked out the worse sites.  But it was only a matter of time before I started surfing again – and I did.

This time, I had a big dilemma.  I knew that if I came clean, I would loose my job and lose my ministry.

I felt guilty.  I felt shame.  I knew what I had done was wrong.  But I knew the consequences would be terrible if I shared.

WHAT WOULD YOU DO?  WHAT DO YOU THINK?

Q:  What do you think I did?

Q:  What would you have done?

Q:  What are the consequences for sharing?

Q:  What are the consequences for not sharing?

Q:  What fears do you think I had?

Q:  What effects do my behaviors have on my marriage?

Q:  What effects do covering up sin  have on a marriage?

In [TWO DAYS] I will share what I did, what happened, and what the results were.

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