I am just a normal guy. I go to church and work a steady job and still the issue of temptation to live an impure life is a problem. I have struggled with porn for several years before I realized I had problem.
My favorite season was spring. Not so much for the flowers blooming, trees budding, or the spring rain it was for the joggers. I am on the road a lot for my job and would see several women in a trip. Most of them were wearing nothing but a sports bra and spandex shorts.
It started with a quick glance and progressed into long stares. The longer the stares became the worse my imagination would get. I started to undress them with my eyes. Lusting after them and wanting to be with them.
One very hot day I was driving to my next job and seen the backside of this woman. She had long flowing blond hair, tight shorts and a tight shirt on. It was a great site, until I passed her and saw the facial hair. It was a guy. I could not believe that I had just lusted over a guy. That was when I first knew I had a problem and needed help.
A few weeks later my wife found porn on my computer and gave me an ultimatum. Get help or get out! I got in touch with my pastor at church and he referred me to someone. After a few weeks of trust building we started a book called Every Mans Battle. In the book there is a chapter about bouncing eyes. An example of that is when I would see a jogger I may look but, then I would look away; bouncing my eyes to something else. If I said it was easy then I would be lying. I would bounce then look in my mirror to get a last view. It took weeks to get a grip on my eyes. At times I would be fighting myself wanting to look. Saying to myself “why are you starving me? You know you want to look why not look? I knew this was the devil tempting me and if I was going to win I cannot give in!
With the help of my accountability partner, bouncing of the eyes technique and God I am able to pass a jogger without undressing her.
My wife and I are also working through the problems of pornography with great success. I plead with anyone out there who is having an issue with either pornography or undressing a woman on the side of the road, to get help. Life beyond porn is more peaceful and God has so much more for you.
Does this sound like you or someone you know? What are you waiting for make the same choice that Rick did here and get accountable with someone. Talk to a pastor, church staff, friend, family, or wife about the struggles you have. Deal with this on your terms and not someone else’s. For more resources please check out the ones at XXXchurch. For accountability software you can check out X3 Watch as well.