The Story of a Woman Who Left Porn

Sayeh Becker is a young woman who was in the adult film industry for just two weeks. She experienced much darkness in her short time in the industry and ended up in a mental institution where she began reading the Bible and found Jesus.

How it all began:

Sayeh moved to California in 2015 for school. She met a guy, and “things began to move very quickly,” she stated. “I found out he was a recovering alcoholic, a drug addict, and schizophrenic,” she added. 

Her relationship took a turn for the worse as her boyfriend began abusing her. Sayeh was at an all-time low, questioning her identity. Abusers will often use brainwashing to destroy a person’s old identity and replace it with a new one, one that matches their beliefs, values, and ideas. 

Sayeh stated, “I was so low mentally, I was depressed, and I hated myself.”

If you don’t know your worth, you’ll settle. If you don’t know who you are, you’ll look for somebody else to guide you, and this is what happened to Sayeh.

From an Abusive Boyfriend to a Pimp:

One day, Sayeh met a woman at a bus stop and opened up to her about her abusive relationship. Unbeknownst to Sayeh, this woman was in the porn industry. She encouraged Sayeh to “forget about this guy” by drinking with her. That night Sayeh got drunk and used drugs with the woman she met at the bus stop and with the woman’s boyfriend.

Sayeh began living with this couple. It wasn’t long after that the boyfriend started pressuring her to do porn. He said she needed to pay for the drugs she had been using. This man became her pimp.

Drugs Got Her Through it:

Sayeh said, “I made sure to get as high and drunk as I could so that I would not be coherent enough to be present when filming sex scenes.” She was using heroin, meth, cannabis, and alcohol to get her through the porn scenes. “I don’t think I would have been able to get through the scenes without the use of these drugs.” She stated.

How a Mental Institution Led Her to Jesus:

She began questioning her life, wondering how she got to such a low place. She started battling suicidal thoughts and, after a failed suicide attempt, checked herself into a mental institution. It was there that she began to read the bible. She heard God say, “I am with you,” and as she looked out the window, she saw a giant cross and was certain God was calling her by name!

After this encounter with God, she began praying and reading the bible daily. She also started going to therapy. It was not a comfortable journey, but she took the necessary steps to receive the healing she deserves! 

Make sure to check out Sayeh’s interview. Her story might move you to tears as it did me!

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