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Is Guilt A Good Thing Or A Bad Thing?

by Seth Taylor on August 10th, 2014 in The Haps

Is-Guilt-a-Good-thing-or-Bad-Thing blogI sat across from the small, kind, man with the aged brown skin and the silver ponytail, pouring my heart out about all my issues surrounding porn addiction and depression and anxiety, and he did what most therapists do well: listened.

But then he did something most therapists don’t: he shook his head.

I paused and asked, “What?

You Christians,” he said. “So much guilt and shame. It’s the most worthless thing in the world.”

I sat there and thought this was like something out of an old Seinfeld episode: “Yeah. What’s the deal with us Christians?

No one talks about grace, love, and forgiveness more than us Christians. And no one seems to feel more guilt and shame. What’s the deal with that? We quote verses that say that nothing can separate us from the love of God, all things are permissible, we can do all things through Christ who strengthens us, and God’s grace is sufficient for us. And then we feel so much guilt, it’s like shame is an odd creature occupying that extra seat in the minivan on the way to church on Sunday. And it just keeps telling us to get our crap together… or else.

The problem is that when we talk about guilt, we are talking about an emotion that is felt and experienced based on deep, unconscious beliefs we have about ourselves. If in your unconscious, you believe you are bad (like some of the more toxic Christian theology seems to categorize you as) then guilt emanates from that wound. In other words, guilt is born in the unconscious wounds in our souls.

At some point, in some way, we were told we were bad. Guilt is born in that dark shadow. (Tweet This!) We don’t feel guilt because we think we should; we just feel it. And that feeling is not of an orderly and enlightened nature that brings us into harmony with what we were meant to be. It is chaos. Guilt cycles on itself, almost feeding on itself, until we either stumble downward into acts of self-abuse (because we unconsciously believe we deserve them) or we adopt an ordo salutis: an old Latin term meaning “Order of Salvation.” This term is sometimes used to refer to a particular interpretation of the order and method in which God saves humanity through the atonement of Christ, but in this case, I am referring to structures we design in our unconscious to pacify, control, and appease the guilt and shame that attack us night and day in order to make our world a functional mess.

So often, we who seek to help people with addiction to porn or sex end up providing them with an ordo salutis. We give them groups to attend, books to read, software to buy, churches to serve in, and prayers to say: all good things unto themselves. But if they are used as a mechanism to control the guilt and pain, then we have simply made a way for them to continue to live asleep but alive, unconscious to everything happening at the deepest levels inside of them. All that “help” can have a numbing effect on the pain.

My therapist said to me once after a long period of silence, “You’re not a bad person Seth.” It was a strange thing. And miraculous. He allowed me to see myself as I was, but had not realized: good. An object of Divine love and a carrier of the Image of the Creator. And when I saw that, I was able to see more clearly what it was I was doing in my addiction to pornography. My eyes were opened – my consciousness moved into the light of the Spirit of Truth.

When a person knows they are good, transformation can come rapidly and powerfully. (Tweet This!) And guilt is a function of pain and darkness. If you feel guilt and shame because of what you are doing, please know this: you are not this person you seem to think you are. Your guilt is no good here.

 


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  • francisco dacruz

    i never lookede at it that way alot to learn from this… and many decisions to take…

    • Seth Alan Taylor

      Hope you’ve headed down that road man….blessings

  • David L Hopkins

    So is it safe to say that realizing how much Jesus loves me will heal the wounds in my soul?

    • Seth Alan Taylor

      Hey man – for some reason, I never saw your question. Sorry about that – my response is this: yes. But this realization has to go beyond an egoic belief. It has to be a felt experience that removes shame, or else it isn’t an actual realization. If something is real, it doesn’t have to be believed in – it can be experienced.

  • BC

    Agreed. And at the same time, it’s a testament to the value of faith. Even in the middle of despair and the cycle of guilt, that guilt is inspired. Being an atheist/secularist for decades can leave one with no conscious sense of guilt or shame when using pornography. In this regime, one doesn’t even have guilt or shame to point one in the right direction.

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